Today I’m so excited to share a few of my favorites from my recent portrait session at our studio with Amanda – who also happens to be an incredibly talented photographer here in Atlanta (check her work out here). Being that we’re both pregnant right now, this shoot was extra special to me, and I had so many things running through my mind as I spoke with her about becoming a mom for the first time…because as women and wives and mothers we all spend a lot of time talking about how great it is to have kids (insert rainbows and butterflies here), but sometimes the truth is that sometimes you can feel like you’re on a island all alone, unsure if you’re doing the right thing for your baby or if you’re the only one who feels a certain way…and I remember how I felt when I was in her shoes and pregnant for the first time with Dylan 4 years ago…and it brought so many sentiments flooding back…
Today I watched you light up in front of my camera, and light up as you felt baby Rowan squirm and kick in your belly, and it reminded me of how much of a miracle that feeling was during my first pregnancy. To know that there’s actually a little person in there, a little person who already relies on you for everything, and will continue to do so for many years…it’s truly mind-boggling. There are so many things ahead of you in these next few months and years that you’ve never experienced before…
You can’t begin to imagine what it will feel like when you go into labor, or how amazing it is that your body knows exactly what to do when it’s time to give birth. You can’t begin to understand it now, but you are so much stronger and more powerful than you realize, and you’ll learn that on his birthday.
You can’t begin to imagine how strange yet comfortable it will feel to hold him in your arms for the first time. How small he’ll feel and how your instincts will tell you just how to care for him.
You can’t begin to imagine how much love will flood over you when you see your husband holding your child for the first time. I would tell you to take the love you feel for him today and multiply it by 1,000, but I don’t think that would even come close. Nothing compares to seeing the man you love holding the baby you’ve made together.
You can’t begin to imagine the tears you’re going to cry. Happy tears over the silliest things as you get to know him – from how perfect his tiny toenails are to how he smiles when he has gas. Frustrated tears as you learn to breastfeed together. Defeated tears at 3am when you’re exhausted and he’s crying and you decide to just give up and cry with him. There will be lots of tears, good and bad, and sometimes you’ll feel like you’re all alone in this motherhood thing and other times you’ll be so overwhelmed with love and understanding that it will blow you away.
You can’t imagine the joy that you’re going to feel. You can’t imagine the pride that’s going to wash over you when he rolls over for the first time, or picks his heavy little head up on his own for the first time. You can’t imagine how fulfilled you’re going to feel when breastfeeding becomes like second nature to the both of you, and he looks up at you with wide-eyed admiration as you nourish him.
There are so many things that you can’t even begin to imagine right now. But looking at you today through my lens, at how radiant you are in your pregnancy, I can imagine all of these things for you…and I can’t wait for you to experience everything that comes along with giving birth, being a mother to a tiny little person, and being a wife to the father of your child. I’m overwhelmed with the possibilities that await you, and I hope that, years down the road, when you look back on these photos they help you hold on to how all of these little kicks and tumbles feel today, and on to how incredibly gorgeous you are as a mother-to-be.
Hair/makeup by the talented Elizabeth Sloan.